And it just might kill me. x.x
I've been with him for over a year. And I love him, I really do.
So why am I breaking up with him?: He can't make me happy. I know he wants to. He's just... x.x not right. He's happy with me, but either he's incapable of fulfilling my needs or is just an ass and not even trying. Actually, I asked him, and he said it was probably a bit of both. So. x.x
I'm not sure how I'm feeling about this right now. I know it can't work and that being with him won't let me become the person I want to be or end up where I want to end up, but I still love him. A lot. I know I come off as a naive and clueless teenager that doesn't know a thing about love to almost everyone. I'm sure that there's a lot I have to learn, and that I probably don't know that much. But I do know that I'm in love with him. And I can't help but wonder, if just realizing that he isn't the one hurts this badly, how painful is losing him going to be?
I know this will probably be the most emotionally tolling experience of my life as of yet. I know this is going to hurt like hell... but this is something I have to do. x/
I dunno. I'm absolutely terrified; support would be lovely.
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Your Money or Your Life,
<3 Lexy
You're like the ocean. Pretty enough on the surface, but dive down into your depths, and you'll find beauty most people never see.



